Why I hate the snow

I work in the evenings and come home in the middle of the night. I hate when it snows because it is so cold and icy when I head home. So this is my story of last night.
I'm driving home on Bangerter and everything is okay. The roads aren't to bad and I'm going normal speed. I'm in the left lane and everyone else is on the other side. There is one guy who is pretty far a head of me in the same lane. I look ahead and see that there is an accident a little bit down the road, and I think you need to slow down. So I lift my foot of the gas. I'm going through the light at 4700 at this time. I guess I was the only one who saw that the accident was in the right side and middle lanes. They all merge very quickly around me to avoid it. Three in front and Three behind. I think the guy in the very front was going slower than the mergers planned and they slammed on their brakes, causing me to slam on mine. The whole stretch we're on is covered in ice and we can't slow down fast enough. It felt like my brakes weren't even working, but everything else was in slow motion. I notice that if I don't do something soon that I will plow into the car in front of me. I move left into the median, thinking that if I pass him at least I won't hurt him. Well as my front was almost to his rear he had the same idea and swerved over. To stop myself from hitting him again I cranked it to the right causing me to almost to flip around and face everyone behind me. Somehow I recovered from that as well. The cars behind all went around me and drove away like nothing happened. I drove the rest of the way home in a daze going about 35 at the most. I have never been that close to an accident before.
I didn't realize how bad it affected me until I climbed in bed and Kevin put his arm around me. I couldn't stop shaking, and had a heck of a time trying to breath. Finally my body started to settle down. It may sound crazy but I know that I was told to slow down. If I had been going any faster I know I would have slammed into the cars in front of me and the ones behind would have hit me.

ABC's

Carson doesn't like to sing for anyone but me and Braxton. I recorded it so Kevin could hear, and thought I'd share. He does it without any help from me. He does forget some letters but his cuteness makes it okay.

It's Warm!!

I'm so excited that it is starting to get warm again. The boys have been dying to go outside to play. So that is just what we did.
I was so proud of them for going down the slide. Last fall they both were so scared. This year they just ran right to it. I have a feeling that we will be spending a lot of time outside this year.
This is my little man. I didn't try the slide with him. He did enjoy laying on the grass however.
I just realized that I have been pregnant for 3 of the past 4 summers!!! Wow, that's all I can say, Wow.

Yay Carson!

Carson is completely potty trained!!! He has been for the past few weeks but I've been scared that I would jixs it if I wrote anything. He has only had one accident in the past month and that was at night. We are so proud of him. It is so wonderful only having to change diapers for 2 instead of 3.

Carson loves to talk to Braxton. He will ask him questions, wait for an answer and then continue on with the conversation. It is so fun to watch. This morning he asked Braxton what he liked to eat, waited for the answer, then replied "milk I like milk too." He then looked at me and said, "I like water, milk,lemonade, sprite, and bouncy balls."
For some reason Carson is scared of everything lately. He woke up around 1:30 this morning crying that a "noisy car" woke him up. He was then scared of everything. I let him come into our room and sleep on our floor. After laying with Ian so he would go back to sleep, feeding and rocking Braxton to sleep, and trying to sleep with Carson I the floor I gave up and let him come into bed with us. It was almost 4 before he fell asleep. Kevin's alarm goes off at 4:30. It was a long night.

Between a rock and a hard place

I have reached a point in Braxton's life that I knew was going to come. To wean or not to wean. I love nursing my babies, but around the time they turn 5 months things change. My body decides that it has had enough. I will get very lightheaded and weak, and the baby will stop getting enough nourishment from me. I know that I have to do what is best for everyone. This weekend I deiced to switch Braxton to a bottle and it is killing me physically as well as mentally. I blame myself for not being able to continue. I know that it's stupid but that's what I do. We started yesterday and I'm ready to cave in. I go back and forth on what is right all day. You would think that this decision is going to change his overall outcome in his life or something. He is doing a pretty good job with the change. This morning was the first time that I have feed him formula because Kevin has taken an active role in the feedings. Brax looked up at me like I was crazy. An hour later he finished all 4 ounces. The part that I love is that Kevin now gets up with him at night. If I go in there he won't settle down. It is a very nice break. In more exciting news Braxton can sit! Not for extended amounts of time but long enough for me to get excited about.

Cute boys

Here are just a few pictures of the boys that I just love.

25 random things

1. I like QVC. Not for shopping reasons just to watch.

2. I don't like the Home Shopping Network. Except for Huggable Hangers, I could watch those all day.

3. I have never watched a rated R movie, nor do I plan to.

4. I'm a picker. I hate when my kids have boogers so I pick them. Things in their ears, I'll get those too.

5. I had knee surgery in '97, Appendix removal in '98, and Gallbladder removal in '99

6. I have never broken a bone.

7. I love to drink. I love the fun flavored drinks that you get at restaurants. I'm thankful I don't drink alcohol, or I would be broke.

8. I love my bed. Truly is my favorite possession.

9. I am a Homebody. I would give up anything to just hang out at home with the family.

10. I like to do crafty things, but never like how they turn out so they end up in the garbage.

11. I can't spell to save my life.

12. I used to have burping contests with my nephews, but hate it when my kids do it.

13. I enjoy getting my hair done. However I'm to dang cheap to do it very often.

14. I love Disney. Everything from Disneyland to the Disney channel.

15. They call Jr. High the armpit of your life, but I loved it. I would totally go back and relive it.

16. I sprained my ankle twice my Sr. year.

17. I went to Puerto Rico to pick up Dave from his mission.

18. I hate to clean the tub. The rest of the bathroom is okay, but the tub is a different story.

19. I miss going to school. I stopped going to have kids and plan to go back.

20. I always wanted to be a Jr. High band teacher.

21. I hate being late. Or anyone being late for that matter.

22. I have three boys that are afraid of everything.

23. Kevin and I have been together for almost 10 years. (3 1/2 dating 6 1/2 married)

24. I was always afraid that I wouldn't be able to have kids. Now I'm always afraid that I might be pregnant again.

25. I hate telling people what we are going to name our kids before they are born. We told people with Carson and every name we would say someone would say something bad about it. I know it shouldn't bother me, but it does. I just think it is rude.